Update: I'm Next
- TK2THE
- Jan 27, 2022
- 7 min read
Updated: Feb 11, 2022
It's been twelve days since my birthday. Seven days after said day, I had the worse stomach pains since July of last year for three days. On the third day, around five in the morning, I started throwing up. I thought it would had been over after the second time. I didn't eat in a day because of the pains, so nothing solid was coming up. The only thing I could think of while this happened was, I never want to feel this way again. I want the storm to be over. I'm sharing this to be more open. A lot of people don't know about what's going on with me. The only thing people know is what they think of me. I guess me sharing shows how unconcerned I am about a majority of stuff at this current moment. Low priority interests get placed at the bottom. If it effects my goals, my dream, it's of concern. If it will matter in five years, it's high on the list. That was me, but then I heard someone singing a part of "Let Go" by DeWayne Woods...
As soon as I stop worrying, worrying how the story ends. I let go and I let God, let God have His way
This changed the way I was going to approach this post. I was going to drop it yesterday. Timing is truly a beautiful thing.
1. adorá Update
Not going to lie, I haven't been focused on this. Starting next month, this will be my main focus. No matter what I have to do for it to work, I will do it. That being said, I'll be relaunching the PayHip portal to allow people to order select items. There are several shirts I've been sitting on that I should had already released. Moves I should had been taken. I'm knocking pieces off the board with my next. I've been approved. Anyhow, I'm planning a photoshoot with an recording artist by the name of Tess Anthony. I mentioned her months ago & I never worked with her. That's my fault. I can't say everything yet, but you'll all see what's what very soon. This is my dream, my heart. Can't let anything get in the way.
2. Twitch Takeover
Twitch has been mighty good to me. I don't know if it's because of my personality, me speaking from my heart, the fact that I work hard or my style & smile, but whatever it is, all glory be to God! Yes, I smiled when I typed that. I started streaming on Twitch in April 2nd of 2021. As much as I'm having fun talking wild, I'm just grateful. This my recap from last year.
This all without using Twitter, a community start-up to put me on, none of that. That's how you know this was meant to be for me. I don't know what else to tell niggas. God is good, is He not? Come on bro. The proof right here! Do the math...TK + 2 = THE.
Also, some geniuses came to my stream while I was playing Words on Stream. They did they thing & got it to level 102! I felt like a game show host! It was so cash money!
Currently, I'm looking for a schedule that works for what I want to do next. As you can see, I have some good numbers, but numbers don't matter. In fact, the only time I cared about my amount of subs was when I found out that I needed fifty to unlock all emote slots.
Today, I have 108 subscribers. I was just approved for animated emotes two days ago. I'm just happy about that, the ability to do more. There's a lot to come. And I won't ease up. It's strange, because the support I receive is from few of those who I've helped, but than again, the way I see help may be different to another person...my words have touched the hearts of many. I've been lionized in their core, the birthplace of their dreams. This is a weight I am not ready for, yet I am excited to prove to myself that I am worth of such an honor...back to help, the same logic could apply to support. I've readjusted my sights & I see clearly again.
Partner by May. No other options or outcomes.
3. Seoul Searching
I don't recall how much information I gave on this topic, but my friend Sam is releasing a book. The title of it is "Seoul Searching". It's actually coming out tomorrow. Basically, this piece of literature will help people learn Korean while functioning as a romance novel.
I'm only involved because she commissioned me to make stickers for her to go along side the release of the book. I can't lie, I dread doing artwork for people. I mean, I hate it. It's Sam though. For anyone that doesn't know, Sam is the person that give me a chance at her surf & skate shop. It was the first time my clothing was ever in a store. She's been a blessing in more ways than that as well, so I felt I needed to do this. Just for her. Ultimately, these are the stickers. It was a bit hard for me for several reasons, but somehow, got it to work.
A while ago, she texted me a photo of the acknowledgments. I got mentioned. I don't know if I've ever been mentioned in a book before, but it's nice to know that this is got me in it. She told me on my birthday too. I'm unsure if she knew it was my birthday or not, but all things worked for my good. I'm excited for her release. I do hope & pray the stickers add an extra level of flare to the overall theme & such.
I can't recall if there's anything else I need to mention. If it is, I'll just say something in the next post. I would had included a site to get the book, but I think she sold out on pre-orders.
4. Poetry Book
Currently writing poems for a book. This will probably be my first book I ever publish. I want it to be around fifty poems or more. To tell the truth, it's been a struggle. I wrote a few & I asked for feedback on them. Many simply praised my writing, but it was two individuals that looked deeper than the others that pierced my mental on this. I've been looking for the right words, punctuation & redemption to create new pieces. The progress is, tough. But I'm always getting better as the days go on. I can feel my heart being guided.
That being said, this is another poem I find myself sharing with you all.
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Under the dark azure blanket is where solitude is discovered
Volant diamonds grace the gaze of all who look upon their silence serenade
She appears
Jealousy fuels the princes of heaven
Her frozen heart of fire drenches the stage in pleasure
Disarray creates the perfect harmony
Precious colors kiss the face of the sky
Her presence is declared the pseudoevent of the millennium as it evanescences into the realm of dreams
Sleep without end shall be the sole house where few will met her again
5. Photography
I am not interested in the same things others are when it come to photography. I'm looking for key things that others aren't right now. Honestly, I am only thinking of one thing when it comes to photos for myself. Everything else is not of interest. Still, here's another photo I took from the photo walk I spoke about before. I have to edit all the photos.
I never sent out the ones I took to the models I worked with. Granted, I was busy & sick, but still. It's been almost a month. I need to get on it & put myself out there.
6. Recap of Last Year
Looking back at it all, I actually did a lot last year. A week before my birthday, I was in a place where, I was dismayed at my progress. I felt I didn't do enough. Really, all of it was me laying the ground work for what's to come this year. I just did stuff to do it, sometimes with a simple goal in mind. Like with the food sale, I just wanted enough to have money for myself, not to create a job for myself. That's my issue. Still, from selling out with my food sale, creating my own community on Twitch, applying myself to things I never thought I would have to & much more, I'm shocked to have realized that I've done so much. Even great, the amount of lives I've affected on a positive note.
The best experience that comes to mind right now is when I talk about God & people tell me that they like it. Once, this person that comes into my streams, they told me that, because of me, they've been working on their relationship with God. Another, one of my favorites really, Win...I thought she didn't like the fact I would mention God & such in our personal conversations. I apologized to her & she told me not to. I was surprised to know that by just being myself, I had impacted her in such a way. But yeah, Win. She's a sweetheart. She has a lot of potential. Back to the topic. Last year was rough at times, cold & harsh. Still made it though. So many blessings, I lost count. Some many wins. God really love me.
7. Future Endeavors
All I'm going to say is, be ready.
Personal Thoughts
You know, normally I would spend so much time here talking about various things. I'm not this time. Maybe next time. Right now, I just want to watch Attack on Titan, eat my food & sleep. I've been up for like thirty hours plus. It's time I rest. I earned it.
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